The Life of a Yogi
As my flight on Saturday draws ever closer, I am
bombarded with "The Mind" and all of its tricks. When I
originally bought my ticket, my plane was to get it around 9:30 pm, but has
been pushed back to 11:30 p.m. and the training starts very early the next
morning. It is going to be an interesting first day! But hey,
nothing says "teacher training" like being exhausted. I can
only imagine what other grand lilas
are at play...
On a much more personal level, I have been
overwhelmed with feelings of unworthiness and lack of preparation. For
me, being with Dharma Mittra is such an honor, and I always want to please him
and represent him well. Knowing that I am still so full of impurities and
ego makes me wish that I hadn't sent in my application so soon--but it's a
little too late for regret. As a wise man told me, God brought me to this
training for a reason. But despite the fact that everyone else thinks
that I am ready, I still have my doubts.
On the other hand, I am looking forward to being
in NYC as it is a very special place for me for a lot of reasons. I am
very blessed to be staying near the center with one of my spiritual brothers
whom I love very much (and get along with), and the thought of being in the same
room with Dharma makes me get a lump in my throat just thinking about it.
I am kind of ambivalent towards Hatha Yoga, but I am incredibly excited
to hear his discourse about the Psychic Development and Psychic Sleep
practices, and to meditate with him.
Other than that, there is no looking back now.
Every time I visit, some old part of me is shattered, and some new part
blossoms. I am going to stop whining and pack. I only need a couple
pairs of yoga clothes and a toothbrush. In this case, simplicity is best.
~Olivia Foss
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Two days until the launch of my eight-day journey.
My excitement grows by the minute as I continue to ensure that the life I'm
leaving behind for eight days is taken care of. Not only preparing mentally and
physically for what lies ahead, I had to ensure that all responsibilities
spanning those eight days would be covered.
I am enrolled in two graduate courses and all of
the work is due in advance so I could take advantage of this experience and be
fully present. Because I am going to be away and leave three children who deal
with a divorce situation, I wanted to take them on a family vacation prior to
my trip to New York. In addition, my two scope and sequences for the classes I
teach at Cushman Middle School, coupled with the assigned readings for the
faculty are due now. I also had to secure yoga teachers for the three classes I
teach outside of Cushman.
As you can see, my life is hectic. I work hard
to maintain balance that includes reflection, meditation, physical and
spiritual practice, family time, and work so that I can successfully fulfill all
of my obligations. As I'm sure you are aware, in our everyday lives the pace
has become ever more frantic and our decision-making process scattered. The
unity of focus achieved through Yoga, coupled with its quieting effect,
provides a vital counterpoint and promotes inner peace.
Having completed the 200- and the 500-hour training, I know the challenge that lies ahead. I am looking forward to spending time with Sri Dharma and continuing to learn from him. Each time I do, I not only incorporate what I learn in my practice, but for the practice of others.
Having completed the 200- and the 500-hour training, I know the challenge that lies ahead. I am looking forward to spending time with Sri Dharma and continuing to learn from him. Each time I do, I not only incorporate what I learn in my practice, but for the practice of others.
~Cindy Ley-Sepe
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